Pushing Through the Week

The week has progressed relatively well thus far. Monday was an amazing day. I had lots of energy and I felt as good as I have felt since the surgery. My mood was very high and I was very positive. In the evening, I was even laughing for no apparent reason and Sue was starting to wonder what the heck was wrong with me! Tuesday was a little more up and down. I had a rough patch in the morning and again I felt the anxiety lift away around 8:30am as if someone turned on the light. I took Maggie to her first grade orientation and while sitting and listening to the speeches, I had another short episode, but luckily it didn't last. I went to work and struggled through my teaching periods, but made it through the rest of the day very well. Wednesday was pretty good as well. I went into work a bit earlier and although at times felt overwhelmed by the noise and activity of the kids, it was a good day. I went to my first therapy appointment and really enjoyed having someone not connected to me in any way to talk to and get some feedback from. We talked about a strategy for surviving my trip to the MRI tomorrow.

Toward the end of the session, I felt the left side of my lip go numb. Soon after, My entire left hand went numb. This was very difficult to deal with in terms of what it means to my health. The therapist and I had just discussed these types of symptoms I had been having and how I always let my mind go to the dark side and thinking about the worst possible scenarios. I tried to keep in mind everything we had discussed and not let it completely bring me down. While in the car on the way home, my hand finally came back to life and I calmed down.

Tomorrow afternoon is the MRI and I am more worried about getting through the test than I am the results and follow up treatment if any is necessary. I'm going to bring a cd of music in case they have that capability and if not, I will use the visualization techniques that the therapist and I worked on. Keep me in your thoughts for an easy time through the test and positive results.